A trigger point in your journey....

Before you began this experience, you determined the frequency at which you want to go through a spiritual awakening. This awakening will enlighten your path and prepare you for the next stage of your experience through learning and understanding.

As you reach this personal frequency alignment, you may feel imbalanced, and the lower frequency will give way to the higher frequency. Your ego must step aside and undergo an ego re-calibration as well.

This shift in frequency will lead you to the experience many refer to as 'the Dark Night of the Soul.' The idea is this: as you move into the lower end of the 4th density spectrum, you must align yourself with its frequency. Love will begin to replace fear in your awareness.

The higher end of the spectrum represents unconditional love, which is connected to the lower end of the spectrum of the 5th Density.

One of the functions of the Ego is to distract you from fear. 

This protective aspect of the Ego operates constantly in the background, filtering out fear until you achieve a frequency alignment with which to replace it—specifically, with LOVE.

 What you DON’T see is all of the fear that the Ego filters out. As the Ego re-calibration occurs, the support you have always known may suddenly feel inadequate. 

You have risen in frequency beyond your core frequency, leaving you vulnerable to all the fear that was being held back.

 It rushes in like a tidal wave, enveloping your mind and refusing to let go.

 You will need to match that new frequency that you have awakened into.

 It earned its name for a good reason—it’s Dark.

 This is one of your spiritual awakenings; you are moving forward into a new frequency. The friction between the old frequency and the new frequency can cause anxiety, fear, loneliness, sorrow, despair, and vulnerability all at once—it feels overwhelming. 

You are not going crazy; rather, your perspective is shifting from FEAR to LOVE. You may find yourself becoming a hermit for a few months, as silence is the best energy to be in; it allows for less resistance.

 You will learn how to turn Fear into LOVE, which is a GIFT from yourself for achieving a higher frequency, and it will be a crucial tool for your journey to the next level. 

The next Density (4th) is where the goal is to learn, understand, and incorporate unconditional Love into your daily life.

 It is the frequency that opens the door to the 5th.

Your ego is actually a guide, one of many, and an essential aspect—or fractal—of self. 

One of the highest and most honored roles as a guide is to embody the ego. Arguably, this is one of the most important guides you work with.

This guide challenges you in every way, is unafraid of hurting your feelings, cares not whether you live or die.

 Is responsible for suicidal thoughts, and will assist you to go through with "it".  

 The job of the ego is to push you to the limits of everything you encounter, often requiring an ego re-calibration to navigate these challenges effectively.

 It constantly forces you to view your world through duality, and fear, offering a slightly warped sense of self that is necessary for contrast.

 As a benevolent guide, the ego staunchly defends your will to choose, regardless of whether it does you harm.

 As a result of your spiritual awakening, the ego will expand in frequency to include love as the operating system. 

With this frequency alignment, as your awareness expands into the new operating system, you begin to see your world through the filter of love rather than fear.

 In other words, love becomes the first thing you think of in a given situation, not fear.

It is not EGO.

It is not self - esteem. 

It is not Self-worth.

It is not Self -Image.

It is not self-importance.

It is not conceit.

It is the unconditional acceptance and revelry of who you are and how you`ve evolved into the person that you are today.

HOW DO I FIND MYSELF?

The world that you know today is filled with distractions.

The first step is to get to know yourself.

To know who you REALLY are.

( Most people bail out here, to encounter ones self head on is frightening for some )

1. Stop giving away your power.

Every day you give away energy in a wasteful way.

Here are some examples,

You feel something is off — in your body, in a relationship, in a situation — but you override it because:

• someone with a title said otherwise
• a friend dismissed it
• a system told you “that’s normal”

This is one of the most common forms of power leakage: abandoning your inner compass in favor of external authority.

Examples:

• saying “sorry” for needing space
• softening your “no” into a “maybe”
• letting someone talk you out of what you already decided

Every time you dilute a boundary, you hand someone else the steering wheel.

When you choose:

• what to wear
• what to believe
• what to say
• who to be

…based on avoiding judgment rather than expressing truth, you’re letting imagined opinions govern your life.

That’s power given away to ghosts.

You swallow your truth because:

• “it’s not worth the argument”
• “I don’t want to upset them”
• “I’ll deal with it later”

Silence is sometimes wise — but chronic silence is self‑erasure.

When you feel compelled to justify:

• your feelings
• your decisions
• your boundaries
• your preferences

…it signals you believe your legitimacy comes from their approval, not your own clarity.

This is subtle but huge.

Examples:

• “I’m not good enough.”
• “I’m too much.”
• “I’m supposed to be this kind of person.”
• “People like me don’t do that.”

These are inherited scripts — family, culture, media — and living inside them is living inside someone else’s architecture.

This is modern life’s biggest thief.

Examples:

• eating what’s easiest instead of what nourishes
• consuming whatever media is pushed at you
• living by the rhythm of notifications instead of your own cycles

Convenience is not neutral. It shapes behavior. When you stop choosing, you stop leading your life.

Examples:

• “They made me feel this way.”
• “I can’t be happy unless they change.”
• “I’m upset because they didn’t do what I expected.”

This hands your emotional sovereignty to external actors.

Workplaces, relationships, social circles — anywhere you:

• dim yourself
• walk on eggshells
• suppress your gifts
• tolerate disrespect

Remaining there is a form of self‑abandonment.

Comfort says:

• “Don’t change.”
• “Don’t grow.”
• “Don’t risk.”

But comfort is not safety. Comfort is stagnation disguised as peace.

When you choose comfort over expansion, you trade power for predictability.

Notifications, feeds, algorithms — they pull your focus, your time, your mood.

Attention is the currency of personal power. Where it goes, your life goes.

This one is massive.

Examples:

• waiting for someone to validate your idea
• needing reassurance before acting
• asking for approval to be yourself

Permission is the invisible leash most people never see.

TIME.

ALONE.

Arguably the most difficult part of this process is SPENDING TIME ALONE.

However if you neglect this step you will advance  no further, as it is the FREQUENCY that dictates your level of achievement not ideology 

This is the number ONE step in the Awakening process and will take copious amounts of your personal time.

It is not Gentle,

It is not quick.

Continued in the writing: Solitude is the doorway to self-knowledge.

Time

Alone...... 

There comes a time when the noise of the world grows too loud, and the soul begins to whisper for silence.

 That whisper is the call to solitude — not isolation, but sacred aloneness.

 It is the moment when the spirit asks to be met without distraction, without audience, without mask.

In solitude, the mirrors of other people fall away. 

You begin to see yourself not as reflection, but as source. 

You notice the rhythm of your own breath, the pulse of your own thoughts, the quiet architecture of your being. 

You discover that the self is not a stranger waiting to be found — it is a companion waiting to be remembered.

When you sit alone long enough, the mind softens. 

The heart begins to speak in its native tongue.

 You learn what truly nourishes you, what drains you, what you have been carrying that no longer belongs. 

You meet your fears and realize they are teachers in disguise.

 You meet your longing and realize it is the compass of your becoming.

Solitude teaches you to listen — not for answers, but for presence.

 It teaches you that peace is not given; it is cultivated.

 It teaches you that love is not something you earn from others; it is something you awaken within.

In the stillness, you begin to fall in love with the one who has always been there: the witness behind your eyes, the pulse beneath your ribs, the quiet intelligence that has guided you through every storm. You realize that you are not incomplete — you are infinite, layered, and whole.

To spend time alone is to walk through the doorway of self‑knowledge.

 It is to step into the garden of your own soul and tend it with care. 

It is to remember that the most sacred relationship you will ever have is the one with yourself.

And when you emerge from that silence, you do not return as you were.

 You return luminous — carrying the fragrance of your own truth, ready to meet the world not from need, but from fullness.

There are secrets that you will uncover about yourself and the world around you.

Things that only you will know.

you will leave each session feeling clean and grounded.

You will spend many many hours by yourself, with no outside interference.

You will begin to witness the magic taking place all around you.

Then, Loving yourself is easy because you know yourself better than any other individual or animal.